Its Friday...I couldnt be anymore excited then what I am. I get to kick off my weekend with a hair trim and I am going to see if I can get Kelly to help me file my witch long nails down before I break them all. Then I will paint them and they run less of a risk of breaking...although at this point, they're as tough as diamonds!
Muff seems to be feeling better, which is a HUGE relief, considering that he was so sick. I am pretty sure when he fought me to take his medicine and wound up falling in the bathroom trash can that that was my first clue that hes doing better.
Jeremy hasn't been himself lately...I talked to him about it last night, and he said that hes tired and worn out and frustrated over his mom's car. I don't know. I understand all of that, but it isn't going to get any better. And I deserve better than what I have been getting from him. I have had the rest of him lately, and I think I deserve to have the best of him at this point. We are having a son...his baby...And thats so huge! And I know that he doesnt get to experience the movements that I do...or the thought that at his point I am never alone, Lucas is always with me. But I want him to be a part of this, but here recently, he has been pushing me away...and that hurts the most. Maybe now that I have talked to him he can sort out what he needs to and then we can sort out what we need to.
I have to tell you that this is almost strange...this life I am living now...its almost someone else's. If you had told me this time 4 years ago that I would be pregnant, happily married (most of the time...teehee...) and own a house, I would have laughed hysterically. Especially since this time 4 years ago I was about to be in an accident that would irrevocably change my life forever and how I felt about things. I guess when you break your hips and you can't walk, you get really reflective. Yes, that was a negative experience, but at the same time, it was probably what I needed at that time...a chance to realize what I wanted. So, I think I am right where I am supposed to be, and it has not been easy to get here...and its still not easy, but nothing worth having truly is, now is it?
Carla, you know what I am referring to when I say that I am absolutely "The Whole SheBang!"
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Sometime life takes you down roads that you think are the worst roads in the world. But then years later you realise that you wouldn't be who you are or were you are if it hadn't happend. Sometimes its like God just needs to pop you in the head to wake you up from the world that you have placed yourself in. Sometimes he drags you through the dirt until you have no were to go to except to him. I know I have been there my share of times. But some how I always end up right were I am suppose to be.
Yep, Amber you are right! And thats what makes it all worth it!
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