Today is a bittersweet day. As you know from an earlier post, I have my own farm of animals at home as it is, all but 1 a rescue. Today, the lady that I got Bjourne from emailed me pictures of the sweetest animals that are in a shelter in Georgia and if they dont have a rescue lined up by tomorrow afternoon all of them will be put to sleep. And it makes me so sad. I wish she would stop sending me pictures of them. Its really hard to delete the emails after looking into their eyes and knowing that they are good animals, but they just havent gotten the right chance. Maybe its because I am pregnant and that makes me more sensitive, but it killed me to delete those 2 emails after seeing those faces, knowing they are as good as dead and I cant help them. If my tears had any power I would cry. If I could pull them back from they have been I would, but I cant fight every battle, and I have rescued 2 dogs and 6 cats, I cant rescue them all. So, I am going to forget about an move on.
I went to the doctors today and she told me that my AFP Tetra test came back negative so as far as that goes, Lucas is healthy. He kept kicking the microphone so she couldnt get an accurate count of his heartbeats right away. All in All I have gained roughly 12 pounds (give or take because of my boots.) in 5 months of pregnancy. I guess thats good. My boobs weigh 13 of that! I discussed my many options with Dr. Anderson and we went over my birthplan which was awesome. She didnt rush, and she answered every question I had. She put my mind at ease by reassuring me that they no longer perform episiotomy's unless the child is stuck. I was a little nervous about the healing process after one. I have never even had a surgery so this whole thing is a big procedure to me...and a little overwhelming. I feel better knowing that I have some amount of control over things, and Jeremy will be there with me, so I am sure I will do fine. So, now I am back to being excited over meeting little Lucas for the first time!!
Now, if I could just get through the next 5 months...
2 comments:
Man 5 more months seems like such a long time, but to everyone else in the world it will go by so fast! When I was pregnant I had people tell me all the time how fast it's went by. "Are you kidding me?" was my response every time. I felt like every minute lasted 2 mins! Just try to get things ready for him. Work on the Nursery and getting things organized. Wait til you're nesting kicks in. You'll be cleaning every waking minute. I cleaned out my closets and rearranged them when I was pregnant with Dylan. Hey, it kept me busy.
You know what you are right. I did the same thing whenI was pregnant. I got a lot of things done. I also worked full time, took a couple of classes at the community college, then at night cleaned an office for a janitorial service. And I still found time to clean...clean... and clean some more. I had it so bad my doctor made me quit everything. I hated it. Then I was sitting at home. A clean home and nothing else to do after the first week.
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