Today is Monday...that horrible day, that I feel the need to lament about every time this dreadful day rolls around....
Wooooo-Hoooooo, the Steelers won the superbowl, and boy was it close! Jeremy couldnt be happier...he has no voice because he likes to yell at the television through the whole thing...but hes happy! I am just glad its over...hes so serious about his football.
Jeremy and I spent 5 hours on Saturday changing the rooms around, and now the baby's room is ready for Lucas. I am 26 weeks pregnant now, and I am just ready to have him...not so much because I am tired of carrying him, but because I need some time off from my job. I know it wont be a vacation, but I won't be at the office dealing with that...And, I am excited to get to meet him. I have gained 17 pounds so far this pregnancy, and I am a little worried I won't be able to lose the weight after I have him. I have always been self concious about my weight (thank my grandfather for that ultimate hang up...I like hearing I am fat...or that I have big hips...) So, now I am afraid that I will have this baby and find myself fatter than I was before...I dont want to have to worry about it...but the truth is, I have never been confident in my looks and never will be. But mark my words, no one, and I mean NO ONE is going to make my son feel the way I felt growing up. And I am going to work out and try my best to be healthy. I think the doctor sort of made me a little self concious when she made a comment that I had gained 6 pounds, which isnt bad, so to speak, but up until then, I had only gained 4 pounds each month. So, I am not too happy with that.
I have to admit I am pretty fed up with my job. I am not sure if its the commute, which seems to get more and more stressful everyday, or if its just hard because I am pregnant. I am not sure if its issues with people in the office, but I hate the fact that I dread it more and more everyday. I just really do. So, I have to find a way to deal with it or quit. And quitting is not an option. So, I have to figure out where my unhappiness stems from and see if theres a solution or call the doctor and have him up my meds!
Well, I am going to go and finish up the invoicing since they are finally done printing. Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day and mood for me...
2 comments:
First of all I do not think that you have gained a lot of weight. 4 pounds a month is not a lot. And you are still young, losing the weight will be a lot easier for you than someone that is older. Gaining weight for our children is just one of the lovely things that we get to deal with for our children. Lucky us to be woman. The job thing.........I think you really need to sit down and think about things. And do that after you are done being pregnant. If you are truly unhappy withyour surroundings then you need to make a change. Being unhappy at work, the place that you spend 9 hours a day, is not a good thing. Yes thing may be hard at first, but your overall happiness is what really matters. But your emotions may be getting the best of you while being pregnant. But while you are at home after delivery you will have plenty of time to think things through. I hope it is just your emotions right now. I would hate not to have you here. Your always happy, funny, and easy to work with.
Thanks Amber, I am glad to know that you see mmy side of it...as crazy as it is sometimes...And you are right, I think its pregnancy hormones getting the best of me...but you know what its like...and you know what I mean, I think that is starting to kill my patience...I guess I should tell her to get off of my cloud, get outta my air, and leave me alone! LOL. You are definitely right. I am not going to do anything rash...I promise!
Thanks for the pep talk, I needed it!
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