Monday...

I thought about breaking into song, but thought better of it!

I went this weekend and got pictures of Lucas taken. I will post the link on here as soon as I can. He did so good, and looked so cute. It feels so nice to have such a good son. I guess I should say blessed as opposed to nice. I really am blessed to have a healthy, beautiful son. And who knew I could love someone so much. It really does take your breath away to realize that you carried and gave life to such a sweet angel. And it breaks my heart that some people can abuse children.

I do think that I had a lot of ideals when I was pregnant. I was a little disgruntled when jeremy didnt seem too interested in my pregnancy. And he went to every doctors appointment with me. I guess I expected him to be interested in feeling Lucas kick and things like that. I think there are just romantic illusions. But, one morning after I had Lucas and we were home, I woke up early and Jeremy had Lucas in the bed with us. And we were all three tucked into bed in the shadows and it was the most peaceful feeling I had had in such a long time. It was like the first time I slept with Jeremy. I know it seems like I am romanticizing this, but I am not.

Things are better between me and Jeremy. We seem to be back to our usual joking selves. I am a little worried about his health. He got sick last night and then was fine. I am just really worried. He acts like its no big deal, but it scares me. I think he should get it checked out. But hes so stubborn and hardheaded it isnt even funny.

Gosh, I wish it were 5 o'clock. I am so hungry I feel like I could eat the south end of a north bound jackass!

Well, I have to invoice so that I can pump...