Things havent been easy this week. My marriage seems to be in a rough spot, and I think I just reached the breaking point. Why do things have to change? I mean, I know that they can change for the better, but sometimes they dont. And it isnt fair. Especially when you love someone so much and you feel like you just cant make them happy no matter what you do. Its insane. And its heartbreaking. So, then you find yourself wondering, what can I do? You walk around with this turmoil inside, asking yourself do I stay? Do I go? If I go do you care? Its so hard. But we seem to be working through them. I hope anyways. But I know that we cant help feeling differently, but I love him, and I cant help that this is who I am, and I cant just go and turn off how I feel. I dont know. I get to stay and fight this battle.
Work is going good. I am helping a co-worker, and it seems to make things better for her, and thats great. Plus, its keeping my mind off of other things because I actually have to think about what I am doing when I do her things. I dont get to go into auto-pilot like I do with my work, where its second nature and I could do it in my sleep.
Well, I am going to go. I have manicure I dont want to be late for.
2 comments:
I think you answered yourself in the first paragraph. You love each other. ever realationship is going to have hard times. So when difficult quesitons come popping into your head just say one sentence "I know any any relationship I will still be having hardtimes." Then ask yourself one simple quesiton, "Would I rather be having the hardtimes with anyone else than besides him?"
This is what happens when you have a baby. It will get easier. It's just a BIG shock for men. Give him some time.
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