Wow...its been awhile since I blogged!

Wow....when was the last time I checked in with everyone?? Gosh, you lose track of time when you aren't at work. Days run together, nights run together, everything runs together.

I have discovered that there are sacrifices that must be made when you become a Mom. Whatever identity you had before the positive sign is gone. You aren't a sexy attractive wife anymore, you arent a professional business woman working her way to a better living...your Mom. Thats it. Just Mom. And I am one of those Mom's where I dont care that Lucas is screaming, I am taking a shower everyday, and I am not lounging around in puke stained clothes, and I have my hair clean and styled and makeup on. I dont care if the dog is the only one to see my effort. But I am slowly becoming my own version of a desparate housewife. Yep. I am desparately wanting to go back to work. How crazy is that?! I miss human contact, and with Jeremy working 2 jobs, hes never home now, and I keep my mouth shut because hes doing what he thinks is best for me and Lucas. I gained a baby and lost a husband. Such a bunch of caca if you ask me.Anyways.
Things are going good on the home front. Missy has her surgery tomorrow and I have to have her to the vets between 7 and 8. Holy crap! Compared to my usual getting up, thats early. Especially since Lucas keeps me up to around 3. I am excited though. I lost 25 pounds (am still fat.) when the doctor weighed me last Friday. I go back tomorrow to see if my stitches are healed. I doubt it. I feel like I still have a golf ball inbetween my legs. Kids hurt. Lucas definitely left a mark on me. And I would like to state that Mrs. Smith is a winch. Jaba the slut makes this awesome blackberry cobbler and I am addicted. I dont even care that it takes 50 minutes to cook. I am fine with waiting. I am surprised I lost ANY weight with that new addiction. (Just for the record, I am sure Mrs. Smith is a lovely woman who does not deserve my petty name calling, but its certainly not MY fault that I have NO will power, is it?)

Well, thats enough of my rambling, this is probably the most boring entry I have ever made...until tomorrow when I update about my appointment...I am going to go watch something on tv. And eat blackberry cobbler. With Hersheys vanilla ice cream...